okokok.i know i really start most of my posts saying things like i've been thinking or i've been reflecting and all.and it makes it seem i think ALOT!
but truth be told, i dont really think much but think in depth in the packets of small lil time i spend thinking.

and i realised my wish of this yr was also similar to wht i wanted last yr.
which was actually to turn back time.
of course it aint possible.
but i watched a movie today called cashback
well, it was about the essence of time.
it wasnt about what you could have done or should have done in the past cause what is done cannot be undone.
it's about what you do in the future that matters the most.
which is kinda true.
SO....
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BE A MAN...
DO THE RIGHT THING!




hahahahha!
that just popped into my mind somehow. russell peters!

studying matters of the mind.
seems kinda interesting.
at least now we can understand people's actions better.
not that i always misunderstand what people say or do!

cause i thought it was time for another change.
n.afe19@live.com :)

sorry hannah i was bored and i passed by your blog so yeah :D


Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

bring the good times back :(

with different people you wear different masks.
get it?

family and friends will keep you alive.
not money,wine nor dine.

Tujhe milke laga hai
Yeh tujhe dhundh raha tha main

Tujhe milke laga hai
Yeh tujhe dhundh raha tha main

Tujh mein hai kuch aise subah sa
Jiski khaatir main tha jaga sa
Aa tu mere Khwab sajaa ja re

maahi aaja re maahi aaja re

Tujh mein hai kuch aisi subah sa
Jiski Khaatir main tha jaga sa
Aa tu mere khwab sajaa ja re

Dil roye ya ilahi Tu aaja mere maahi
Dil roye ya ilahi Tu aaja mere maahi
Dil roye ya ilahi Tu aaja mere maahi
Mere maahi Mere maahi
Tu aaja mere maahi

Tujhe milke laga hai
Yeh tujhe dhundh raha tha main

Tujhe milke laga hai
Yeh tujhe dhundh raha tha main

Tujh mein hai kuch aise subah sa
Jisko khaatir main tha jaga sa
Aa tu mere Khwab sajaa ja re

Dil roye ya ilahi,Tu aaja mere maahi
Dil roye ya ilahi,tu aaja mere maahi
Mere maahi mere maahi Tu aaja mere maahi
Dil roye ya ilahi tu aja mere maahi

Maahi maahi maahi
Maahi maahi maahi

Dhadkano mein maahi saaanson mein hai maahi

Tu hi hai mere dil ki tamanna
Teri hi yaadein har lamha
De Mujhe de apna aanchal
Dhoop mein jalta main harpal
Tujh mein hai kuch aisi ghata sa
Jiske Liye Hoon mein pyaasa sa
Aa Tu Meri Pyaar bujha ja re

Dil Roye ya ilahi tu aaja mere maahi
Dil ROya ya ilahi tu aaja mere maahi

Mere maahi Mere maahi
ho Aaja mere maahi Dil Roye ya ilahi
Tu Aaja mere maahi Dil Roye ya ilahi

maahi maahi maahi maahi maahi maahi

Bas Mera tu maahi saaanso mein hai maahi
Hain mujhe hai tera armaan hai tuhe hai mera banna
Har ghadi teri dil mein aahat ttu mile mil jaaye raahat

Jud Ke bhi tu mujhse juda sa
Mulke bhi tu kya hai khafaa sa
Aaaja meri baahon mein saja re

Jud Ke bhi tu mujhse juda sa
Milke bhi tu kya hai khafaa sa
Aaaja meri baaho mein saja re

Dil roye ya ilahi,tu aaja mere maahi
Dil roye ya ilahi,tu aaja mere maahi
Dil roye ya ilahi,tu aaja mere maahi
Dil roye ya ilahi,tu aaja mere maahi


it feels good to be multi-lingual.
you can hear people bitching about you without even knowing they know you're listening in.


on a slightly different note,2more wks to pop.hopefully i do pop and can be free from camp crap.
these few days have been very good,reason being i think im finally getting back on the track i was before i enlisted to ns..getting to talk to the people i am very comfortable with and such..
with people i feel at home with etc.
yeah,so it was definitely a good friday for me..and saturday too i guess. =P

so gonna kick some balls after 2wks!

let me back onto the battlefield again.
this time,it'll be WAY different than the last time.
no let ups,i swear.

china has 32million more boys than girls!
why? cause of selective abortion..tsk tsk.
they say it is gonna be a problem for decades to come
why distinguish between the xy and yy chromosome,both carry the same life form
now there is a problem awaiting to unravel..we'll see what happens

remember the younger days?
pillow-fighting or maybe fighting with ur siblings..
or playing at the playground,or soccer under the void deck.
scooting away when u see the police car rolling in?
somehow,u replay all these events and places when you're stoning...
or when you're thinking of what you have been doing here..



some books i wanna read.maybe you guys shld go pick it up too :)
- time traveller's wife
- slumdog millionaire ( yes i know the movie is out)
- 19 minutes, change of heart and sister's keeper by jodi picoult
- the ninth life of louis drax by liz jensen

heard this song before?

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?

What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?

You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you

Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you

Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside

Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you

Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break?
What if I, what if I, what if I
Bury me, bury me


kinda on the emo side.

the feeling is coming back again.
it feels like shit.
yet, it feels good at the same time.
yes, i know its contradictory..but im sure you had two feelings at one go right? :)







Boy you know it feels good with fire back on your tongue
If you talk you better walk you better back your shit up
With more than good hooks while you're all under the gun

well, it kinda feels like i got my fire back.

cos i dont care that much any longer

remember this song? i liked it then and still like it.


Easy living,
killed the young dudes,
in the high boots.
Teenage,
in the pace age,
that's when love burns,
now it's your turn.

Fascination
Fascination
It's just the way we feel.

Fn
It's just the way we feel. (yeah)

We love this exaltation (woh-oh, o-o-oh)
We want the new temptations (woh-oh, o-o-oh)
It's like a revelation (woh-oh, o-o-oh)
We live on fascination

Passion,
is our passion,
in the moonlight,
on a joy ride. in the snow
Easy living
killed the young dudes,
in the high boots. (oh yeah)

Fascination
Fascination
It's just the way we feel (come on).

We love this exaltation (woh oh, o-o-oh)
We want the new temptations (woh oh, o-o-oh)
It's like a revelation (woh oh, o-o-oh)
We live on fascination.

The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
The word is on your lips - say the word
Fas-ci-na-tion!

We love this exaltation (woh-oh, o-o-oh)
We want the new temptations (woh-oh, o-o-oh)
It's like a revelation (woh-oh, o-o-oh)
We live on fascination (o-oh...)

Say the word now (fa-sci-na-tion)
Say the word
Come on say the word now (fa-sci-na-tion)
Come on (fa-sci-na-tion)

kinda boring sunday..worse off with booking in later at night.

they say its good to be opinionated..
but never try and force it on another..
somehow..thru ns i kinda learnt to endure thru some of the bullshit ppl say
and also figured how to let go of stuff that may never be corrected anymore
like yesterday's results and all
not regretting it but same as O levels, u always feel you just could have given a bit more..
a bit more..but doesnt matter anyways does it
cause a broken mirror cant be repaired(something like that!)

7more wks of shit before i POP(again!)
i wanna grit my teeth and pull thru again.

and for those who do frequent my not-so-updated blog,pls be aware of a concert at innova junior college on friday 13th march..the tickets are at 5bucks,no booking etc is required i think cause there should be a booth ready for you guys to buy tics on the spot and all..so go for the concert..it's called "in loving memory" organised my haashir and syahir..if u dont know them,nvm but go for the concert.

bring back june12 2008.
i like the way things were then.
then maybe i could have done things right.
not like how it is now.

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

4 3 2 1 ....P O P O!
yes yes..passing out babey!

dont you know that old habits die hard?
keeping it in had been one of the best things i had.
but now, letting it go seems more fun.